I in back in Phnom Penh. What a tour! I took a night bus from Siem Reap to Koh Kong. The bus was directly (I had to change trains and wait over an hour) and loungers Sleeper, that is, right, like the glossy photograph showed. No, nothing for extension, a normal bus. I slept surprisingly well and long. Prepare for ever the day after the long flight before. Tomorrow I fly back to Kuala Lumpur first. The bus put me not off in Koh Kong, but to the Thai border in the pouring rain with ankle-deep water, roads and taxis required insane amounts, but they recognized the difficulty of the situation. A Japanese in the late forties, told in the end with me and even paid the tuk-tuk ride. Only problem was that he liked me so much that he me in the afternoon throughout the area on a motorcycle was looking for. Would have been good, he would have spoken English. I felt a little unnett him not to give my full attention and company. For this, I chatted in the evening with an alcoholic who says of himself that he is an alcoholic and likes a German join out who has married a Cambodianerin and wants to be an Australian Buddhist monk. Too much bad karma I can not accumulate have when I get such nice company instead of the Japanese.
In Koh Kong, I borrowed a mountain bike and cycled to the mangrove forest. The trees with their roots in water and form a labyrinth of small islands in the area and are important in order to keep the soil as well as shrimp and fish build their nests there. Looks nice, even when it poured again, which in the rainy season is normal. I was once again bathed in mud, is always clear. Long I sat there and looked at the water in the hope of a freshwater Irrawaddy Mekong River with dolphins or even seen. Very rare, very funny to see. They gave me no chance because of the rain and I saw actually no. But I decided the day to simply enjoy leisurely to sit and talk for hours listening to Ajahn Brahm, the one I have selected for the current guru. His speeches Buddhism can be downloaded free of charge. They are funny and wise and very educational. Buddhism is every bit of knowledge I to win attractive to me. So much is consistent with my experience and I like the undogmatic oriented experience - should find the natural sciences, that the Buddhist teachings are wrong. Since it seems not to threaten wild type, it is more of a - Try it! I believe that Buddhism makes me just fun and I would not expect from a religion and therefore so far kept me right away.
I think now of course over to Germany to go. If I am a little in the mood to want to go further, I see Germany as just another country on my life journey. As I have just changed me, I can probably only really tell when I talk with old friends, with my beloved, well-known woods walk. But I can take stock.
I feel balanced, a little tired of all the many actions which I have prescribed to me every day, but also quiet. I am who I am and care about less and less about what others think of me. I know more what is important to me. The generosity, the humanity, the fun and no beer Ernst (life is much too important to be taken seriously is, I think Oscar Wilde said). In general "deadly serious", while it is said always, beer is funny. Hm, it's wonderful for me to not drink or take drugs. Do I just do not like pubs and nightclubs to meet people and just as little a (big) car and a giant apartment for which I would only work harder, more ballast, more cleaning. I must not show through things, who I am. I am absolutely good enough. But I want the snow which I've missed most of all, the ski trips, the quiet, vast mountains in the snow. I think about snow trips to the north after. A year in the snow-wow! That's always been me.
I am flexible. Goes to sleep almost anywhere, I deal with nearly every man in any good relationship, a life without chocolate and milk products is possible (though not necessary), being alone is nice, company is great.
But I'm also less flexible, tenacious in some ways. I really do not want the middle of a big city, I like nature, I will talk to me three less. No matter who wants me where I do my thing. Very stubborn, even worse than before.
I have the full confidence that everything will be fine, no matter how things develop. I am very happy to have found out about it that I may go in outdoor education and will and I have a feeling that the study of philosophy ultimately led here, work and above all the travel. I have long, long sought, and will do what I have found at least for a long time. I'm emotional, incredibly touched as many completely new people I met who apparently did nothing more than to help me in various ways. I'm looking for burning a religion, which I used to be rather unimportant. I can only say I have no regrets. What a trip, what a feast. Of course it was hard to wash the many dishes to be shaken by Leo sometimes right and me here and because in a bit lonely. But I have learned so much. Everything is possible when I first would decide to do something. It does not matter what anyone says, it's my life. Sure, I'm pretty broke, when I come home. With money it is easier, but not just another new experience, unless I finally returned my very probably significant Australian and New Zealand's tax and pension payments get. I have found jobs in New Zealand and Australia, as is already in Germany and open up a. For information I am more than grateful and open to all! Operation, washing dishes, writing, help out, clean, chic walking around or not, I have also well established that not all I am. This is a job I do, a small segment of my life, but not my identity. How many times have I heard the question but in Germany, what I do and because they wanted to hear from my job. The fact that I'm studying philosophy, has often led to a condescending look and the question "And what do you do with it?". Some people were honest and sincere curiosity, many wanted to demonstrate superiority seemed to me. Comes and goes all the offices and the suits, the chic car and house. Are they happy, is the question. Some yes, some no, some people find the question already obscene.
The world and the people - I can not differently than they love and am therefore far more interest than before. History, geography, these are suddenly interesting areas for me. A wonderful adventure, twenty months, which I do look back very intense and varied. What a celebration!
I will miss this blog, but convert it into a book and see what happens. If I can turn on a publisher, excellent. If not, I have written down my memories in a book that is also a very good experience. I have already a number of readers who want to get it sent immediately.
thank all my wonderful readers who have supported me so much with her advice and comments. of my friends really not disappointed. I knew that your class are, and will not betray me, just because I'm at the other end of the world. This is not, of course, I've heard some travelers complain that they receive from home qualities with incomprehension or equal to no more messages. For me, confirmed that one is near, whom you love, this is where the separation is not much. I will probably miss
the daily new and unknown. I liked to be busy always, the answers my energy level, even though I see now how important it is for me, again and again simply to sit still and do nothing. But alas, there are so many new adventures and there are particular to you, which I have so not seen. I can not wait, you miss a cuddle and talk once again too much!
I leave for Kuala Lumpur, from my nice bed at the Lithuanian Ruta in Phnom Penh to my nice bed at Angel. Did not I good?
The small Hunderl traveled in the pocket in the luggage compartment on the bus. It came with a large family in a small tuk-tuk and incredibly much luggage bags to the bus stop and was transported in the luggage compartment, where it had to endure the unvisited six hours. But he was before the trip and just simply adorable gently as I stroked him and just after the ride. I did when we took a break, the Dog into the fresh air dry, but it can not even English. A weak excuse, so it feels. When I saw him in Phnom Penh again extensively stroked, the father came to the family and said that you like dog, you have it. He is a very special dog, something dear. But I can not take a dog on my flights. I would have done smoothly, it would be possible, but with all of the quarantine, I had not intended to fly. I wish him a good life, sigh and think of him. Poor guy ...
I hope you still feel like the episode "Bliss temple in Angkor," which is almost done here and hopefully tomorrow will appear. The temples have me with enthusiasm almost from Radl torn and this happens at any Tourimussmonumenten almost never the case. You remember that I have not even gone to the Taj Mahal in India.